Tired Of Trying...

sometimes all you want is to be heard,when things don't go your way, a mistake you regret, a failed relationship,memories locked in your head,a news you could dwell upon, or something that touched you and made you think.

 I always thought,i lost alot in my life,specially friends but the truth is,you can't lose what you never had,you can't keep what is not yours and you can't hold on to something that doesn't want to stay.
I am tired of trying,tired of making up things everytime
(T)orn apart
(I)nsecure
(R)eally faking my smile
(E)xtremely sad
(D)rowning in my tears.

You ignored her and pushed her away just because you knew each time she'll come running back to you. But guess what? Now she won't.I don't chase after anyone...if you wanna walk out of my life, I'll hold the door open for you.But one thing is for sure,one day you are gonna need me like I needed you, and just like you, I won't be there.

Wish You Were Here!!

I was impatient and naive that I let people take advantage of me.My life has turned up side down and now it is crashing down.Then I am reminded of the choices I had made.Those choices have changed my life completely.I have done this to myself.No one is to blame.I thought if I ignored the pain.The pain would go away and things would change.But I was wrong things have changed.I do not feel the same.For what was once love has turned to annoyance.And now I must make my escape.To me it was so perfect, to me it was going fine,I never thought i'd lose you I thought you'd always be mine.I’m Speechless and worried,You said we would last forever,Never knew it would end this way.Today I felt so lonely without you,Wish i could get you back,But,Now you're gone and I'm lost without you here now,But I know I gotta live and make it somehow....!!!!

 

Cheryl

You mean so much to me

More than I could ever say

And even if you don't believe me

I mean it in every way



Whenever were together

Nothing can go wrong

And I'm starting to think

That with you is where I belong



Whenever we are together

I thank God that I'm alive

With you by my side

I think I can survive



You take away my sadness

You take away my pain

This feeling when I'm with you

Is nothing I can explain



I wish that I could be with you

All throughout each day

Therefore the smile on my face

Would never have to go away



I know you understand

That I'm in a constant fight

And your one main reason

Why my life is worth the fight



You’ve always been there for me

No matter what I’ve gone through

So I just want to take this time to say

Thank you and I love you Sister

 
 

Love For Me Is "You"

You changed my world with a blink of an eye .

That is something that I can not deny

You put my soul from worst to best

That is why I treasure you my dearest

You just don't know what you have done for me

You even pushed me to the best that I can be

When I'm with you I will not cry even a single a tear

And your touch have chased away all of my fear

You have given me a life that I could live worthwhile

It is even better every time you smile

It so magical those things you've made 

To bring back my faith that almost fade

Now my life is a dream come true

It all began when I was loved by you

Now I have found what I am looking for

It's you and your love and nothing more   
 

You have given me this feeling of contentment

In my life something I've never felt

I wish I could talk 'til the end of day

But now I'm running out of things to say

So I'll end by the line you already know"I LOVE YOU" more than what I could show

Being Alone

Do you ever get that feeling where you don’t want to talk to anybody? You don’t want to smile and you don’t want to fake being happy. But at the same time you don’t know exactly what’s wrong either. There isn’t a way to explain it to someone who doesn’t already understand. If you could want anything in the world it would be to be alone. People have stopped being comforting and being along never was. At least when you’re alone no one will constantly ask you what is wrong and there isn’t anyone who won’t take ‘I don’t know’ for an answer. You feel the way you do just because. You hope the feeling will pass soon and that you will be able to be yourself again, but until then all you can do is wait.

"Me"

I lay here awake thinking about decisions I have made and people I have had in my life and wonder if I had made a different decision where would I be now…

 I was told recently that I place restrictions on my life but don’t we all in some way or form… Don’t we all find an excuse for not being able to do something, love something or complete something? I was told that I have a fear and this fear places restrictions on my life and it has me thinking. Do I and if so does it?

This year I have met many a people and made many new friends, although few have stood out.But Still few people touched my heart.My friends believed in me and opened my eyes to a lot of things.It excited me how my friend would challenge my thoughts, encourage me to not just try new things but inspired me as well not just through words but through actions too… ....

But now things have changed...and so i have to change too.Time has come to take tough decisions on myself,time to bring changes in me,time to try the new "ME"

 I read somewhere recently about a theory on self destruction and I guess I am asking myself right now did I make my decision because I felt I wasn’t good enough or were they to enter my life impact it in a profound way and move on?